Almost brought myself to tears

Quite the title to kick off a journal when I haven't posted one of these in more than a year, but what I said is true. If anyone still looks to this page at all for anything, you would've seen I posted stuff a little while back. GMod pics, nothing special. This isn't what got me to almost tear up.

No, it was all the old notes that I still have sitting around from when I was really active here. Even as far back as 3 years ago.

Seeing all the friends I left behind here when I stopped coming here regularly. Seeing how much I really turned my back on. And even worse, seeing how many of those great friends I once had...just disappear. I guess, coming back here just kinda...makes me miss the good old days. Miss the days when I felt like I had a place here, had friends that cared about me. I look here now, and ever since I left, I feel as if...I may have been forgotten about, and that those days are now gone. That I missed out on one of the best things that ever happened to me.

I guess, even though this journal probably won't get seen by anyone at all, it's just that...I felt that I needed to say this. To say something that no one else would listen to. To say something, so that maybe I wouldn't make the same mistake again, and that others wouldn't do the same.

I'm crazy for this, and I know it, but that is who I am.